Captivating 2

here is some more stuff i've learned while reading Captivating:

-turning from the way you've sought to save yourself:

1. in what ways have i tried to save myself? making myself feel wanted and needed by coming up w/ these stories
2. I'm so sorry God. I'm sorry for trying to fix things on my own. I pray that I would turn from those ways and never return.

-invite Him in:

1. Revelation 3:20 "Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in."
2. shattered places: jealousy of other girls
3. Father God, i invite you into my heart. come in and mend my broken heart. take away this jealousy that consumes me. i give you permission to heal my wounds. heal the parts of my heart that have been broken by guys. i give you permission to mend my broken heart.

-renounce the agreements you've made

1. agreements i've made w/ myself: i'm ugly, i'm too fat, i'm not as pretty as the girl next to me, i don't have as much to offer as other girls do, guys don't find me attractive, they will always pick another girl over me.
2. Father God, i rebuke those agreements i've made w/ myself. all of these things are lies. You have said that i am beautiful for i was made in your image. to You, i am priceless. i will always be loved by you and you never have to decide between me or another girl. i pray that i would begin to see these agreements as lies from the Devil. i pray that You would show me your truth.

-ask Jesus to heal you:

1. God, i pray that you would come and heal me. come and take away all of the hurt that has built up in my heart.

-let Him father you:

1. God, thank you so much for blessing me w/ such an amazing earthly father. thank you for using him to show me how much You love me. i pray that i would be open to seeing how much i mean to you and that i wouldn't shut them down as lies.

-longing for romance:

1. my desire to be romanced and pursued doesn't have to wait to be answered for a man. God longs to pursue me and romance me in the same way.
2. what are the things that romance me: sunsets, stars, fireworks- those are whispers from God, my lover. notes that awaken my hearts desires and longings.

-God's way of romancing me is through sunsets, starts etc. we miss those romancing moments because we shut our hearts down. ask God to reveal His love to me, He loves it!

-what does God want from me:

1. the same things i want from Him. He wants to be someone i want and love. He wants me to know Him on a level only lovers know.
2. Song of Songs 4:9 "You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace."
3. Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing."
4. I've come to realize something. all of the times i was interested in a guy, but he suddenly stopped talking to me, that was God chasing them away (Hosea 2:6-7 "Therefore I will block her path with thornbushes; I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way. She will chase after her lovers but not catch them; she will look for them but not find them.") that way God trying to take my attention off those guys romancing me, or me wanting them to, to allow Him to be the one to romance me. but i still didn't let Him. i was so upset that He took those guys away from me that i wouldn't allow Him to romance me.